A lot of things have happened since I graduated from UCR.
I stayed in Riverside for a month, I applied for jobs… I went to Asia (Taiwan & Japan) for a month, I applied for jobs… I came back from Asia, I applied for jobs… I ran and got caught by the police, I applied for jobs… I went to Block Party, I applied for jobs… I got a traffic ticket, I applied for jobs… I went to Catalina Island, I applied for jobs… I blacked out and submerged my phone in water, I applied for jobs… Fuck.
It might sound like I’ve been having a lot of fun while being unemployed but deep down I feel like a mess. All of my friends have found a job, and I really mean ALL the people that I am close to have found a job. I know that everyone goes at their own pace however I feel like I have stopped progressing in life despite what everyone says around me. I have so many passions…. I love dancing, I love cinematography, I love video editing, I love traveling but all of these are at a halt. All the potential companies that I have applied to and interviewed have denied me of their openings thus far. My friend who I’ve been on this Job Search journey finally got a job today and I am, with all my heart and soul, so proud of him.
I know this post sounds sad and depressing but I mean what else can i say? I really need to find myself AND find a job which I can see myself doing that will enable personal and professional growth in my life. I’ve always been a happy optimistic person but I guess this is the part in my life where I’m going to be a bit sad and dispirited. It’s been a long journey and I’m afraid that the journey won’t end. The light at the end of the tunnel seems dim as my life continues.